Part 2: Dia

Air mata yang laju mengalir ke pipi disapu dengan hujung tudung. Hujung tudung itu dipandang lama. Tudung yang membawa hatinya jauh dari perihal cinta manusia. Tudung yang dipakai semata-mata kerana ikutan. Tudung yang membawa dirinya sejauh ini. Tudung yang memberi erti hidup baru kepada dirinya.

Repost: New beginning?

It has been a while since i feel the need to write something but alas, I do not have anything to spill just yet. 

I have been editing out all previous posts and deleting this and that without actually thinking to delete the WHOLE posts. Side eyeing the-me-who-changed-everything. 

and whoopsie here it is, my new blog with a new background (which i will get back to reedit again later) and new blog title + address. 

Perhaps I just need something different so that I would go back to writing and hopefully finding ways back to myself. 

So, dear me, I promise that I will start working on my writing again, and perhaps making a new one for professional purposes at wordpress INSHAALLAH. 

._.

because everything starts somewhere right, and the start is the beginning of everything.

*smile*

Part 1:Aku

cdt: mr. google. xsempat nak lukis

4 April 2012

Kepalanya dilibas dengan kertas 'esaimen' yang elok je diletak di sebelah laptop.

"Hoi apa yang ko duk buat depan laptop tu? Macam nak masuk dalam laptop je", Az di belakang bersuara kuat sambil menahan gelak.

"Kurang asam punya kawan, kepala aku ko libas dengan paper Ekonomi?", tangan menggosok kepala sambil mata masih mengadap laptop. Fokus. kalau tak habis laa aku kalah kena makan dengan zombie ni.

Nokia di tangan berbunyi menandakan mesej Whatsapp masuk.

"Sibuk ler Brader J ni duk tegur aku pasal gambar profile aku ni.. aku punya profile suka hati aku ler..," Az bertukar nada. Ah.Aku tak suka la kalau bab-bab kena tegur tanpa usul cerita ni. heh.

Ik berhenti mengadap Zombie yang sedang berjalan ala-ala catwalk ke arah Alice tu. Takpalah, bagi peluang dia makan jap.

" Ko kenape angin tetibe weh?"

"...."

Esaimen di meja dilempar ke katil, terkena batang hidung orang yang sedang mengadap skrin Nokia di tangan.

" WEHHH. HANCUR ESAIMEN AKU TU WEH..! Kurang asam la kawan", laju tangan mengutip esaimen yang dilempar.

Sengih.

"laa.. Kau boleh bercakap pulak. Ak duk ingat dah bertukar jadi patung. Yelah sopan tak sopan pun takkan la takde jawapan..", bibirnya tersenyum manis, hadiah untuk teman yang berkerut muka.

Angkat bahu.

"Takde apa lah. Mende remeh je. Aku nak beli makanan. Nak pesan pape tak? ", wajah selamba dipamer tanpa rasa bersalah.

Ik memandang wajah teman di hadapan tiga saat sebelum sambung membunuh zombie.

"Oblong special satu.."

"okay.."

dream,hope and belief.

i left myself a year ago

and i found it was good to just be bold

i found it weird but i let it go

but my heart felt the cold.

i remained there without a worry

as time got greedy

my dreams were getting blurry

and the weather turned windy.

i was trapped in the black hole

i felt like i could not see the light again

my heart was pierced and there was a hole

starting to turn black all over again.

i tried to fight myself and reached the light

tried to grasp into the reality

that the world  i was in was actually a plight,

towards somewhere called, Eternity.

i turned and turned till i saw a path

a voice from here and there tried to poke

but i turned again and saw a long different path

i ran fast before the darkness started to choke.

i saw a dim of light

a stray of white light embraced me

after a while my heart felt light

without darkness surrounding me.

the hole was still there, barely healed

i still felt the chill from it within

but my heart started to change, slowly sealed

eventhough the light was barely in.

pain and regrets surrounding me

i left myself and  let it go

i clasped my hands hard and shoved down the other me

now i started to change for another go.

i changed.

and still walking on the long path.

for the dream, hope, and belief.

inshaAllah. May Allah Bless.

::23.1.14:: 16.09::

sometimes

sometimes

you dream big

and believe that it would come true.

sometimes

you just want to run away

so far away that you see nothing

but what you want to see,

to have,

to possess.

sometimes

things go accordingly

you become greedy

so you keep walking

to your heart's content.

but sometimes

you forgot that everything is not forever

you lost the light

that once lightens your soul

you are blinded

you could see nothing but

mere darkness.

and sometimes

you just don't understand

the purpose,

the eternal glory

you just don't get it at all.

how selfish

how ignorant could you be then?

::220114::21.35::